Turning The Page

I hate the word "single" but I have decided to leave you before I start hating myself for loving you to a point of being stupid. We shared the same passion for arts and music. We loved crossword puzzles and scrabble. We stayed at the couch the whole day just being quiet and not get bored. We made fun of each other and laugh until our bellies ache and our eyes welled up with tears. But with each year that went by, I noticed that you laughed less often when we were together.

We agreed to pretend to be in a relationship until someone comes along. I know I'll never meet mine because it's you that I want. I sometimes wonder why you never learned to love me in a romantic level. Why is it easier for you to pretend you love me? 

Lately I have been haunted by the possibility that you'd be leaving me soon. I was at the coffee shop yesterday and a familiar sound made me look your way. You were laughing with her over something trivial and I felt a sharp pierce in my heart. We used to be like that.

“Letting go doesn’t mean that you don’t care about someone anymore. 
It’s just realizing that the only person you really have control over is yourself.”

I can feel that this chapter of our lives is coming to a close. You were the Mr. Right for me. Sadly, I wasn't the right one for you. I wish that all may go well with you. I pray the same for me.

I must turn the page so that the story of my life will continue. Without you.