This will be the last time you are gonna hear from me. I'm not sure if I'll make sense at all. I prefer to leave without saying goodbye but I don't want to be deprived of the opportunity to pour out my thoughts and innermost feelings. And so I opted to write you a letter.

I want you to remember that I will always be grateful for your friendship. Your companionship has helped me make it through the most confusing times of my life. You just don't know how much I looked forward to spending time with you back then. Because being with you made me appreciate the simple things that life could offer.

Thank you for trusting me. I'm too cautious and yet you took me in without questions. Thank you for lending an ear to my unending complaints with how my so-called life sucks. And for never failing to turn my mood around.

Thank you for the tender moments that made me almost fall in love with you. A stupid feeling which I tried so hard to suppress worrying that your knowledge of it will scare you away. You know I could not afford to risk the friendship. And I'm sane enough to know that the gap between us is just to wide to fill.

I must throw away every memory or I'll be forever bonded with what has been. I must erase the path that leads me to someone I shouldn't even dream to be with in the first place. It is really foolish of me to make myself believe that your kindness translates to something romantic. It is crazier to keep on hoping that we could be together.

Things are somehow getting better at my end.

I wish you well.

*first published in Tabulas 07 Sept 2006


  1. I have this feeling that this post is related to your recent entry hehe
    Anyway, i think it is really part of our lives.. there's always someone who will break our hearts whether it is a friend, a family member or a special someone.. but then from these heartbreaking experiences, we learn something and it made us strong and wiser... but then, despite of all the hatred, time will soon heal everything and things will all go back to its place

    1. I'm actually attempting to write a book. This should be part of the 3rd to the last chapter. hehehe

  2. Love it! You should for sure look into releasing ceremonies, just to see what they're about. Then you can do one or make up your own. They're such a powerful tool

  3. You know what is best for you. This feeling, this negative emotion, it will pass. So you will be fine and stronger. :)

  4. I love how you write. I can feel your emotion and it takes me back to certain times in history where I have felt these same feelings. Thank you for sharing something so personal.

  5. I had to read the other comments to realize this was fiction. Haha! Great tug on the emotions, though. What kind of novel is it, self-published?

  6. It's well written, is it going to be a letter that the almost loved one receives? :)

  7. As I was reading your post, at the back of my mind I feel like hearing the rhythm of a favorite Tagalog song "Muntik na Kitang Minahal". On the other hand, I admire your strength of abandoning a budding love, which I believe is very difficult to do if you really love the person. I wish you well too.

  8. Why do i feel too much hurt on this? What have you experienced to be able to write such emotional piece?

  9. Somehow I can relate to this haha but that was years ago. I'm excited for the upcoming book!😉The emotions was so intense!😀


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